Thursday, April 22, 2010

i love u baby!

acap kali aku berkesempatan menemuinya..aku akan melihat satu persatu pada wajahnya..mencari apa yang tidak kena..dimana cacat celanya..namun, biarpun ada, hatiku tetap ingin menatap wajahnya..walaupun pada sesiapa yang memandangnya hanya akan melihatnya begitu sahaja tapi tidak aku..mungkin aku tahu apa isi hatinya..mungkin aku tahu apa kebaikannya dan kelemahannya..mungkin semua ini terjadi disebabkan aku suka padanya..memang suka padanya!..aku cinta padanya!..aku teliti dari tiap segi..wajahnya..pakaiannya..badannya..pergerakannya..percakapannya..aku memerhati semua itu..lalu perasaan cinta itu menerjah datang bersama angin dan kekal di hati ini..
Oh tuhan!aku amat bersyukur kerana ditemukan insan ini.walaupun insan ini serba kekurangan namun hadirnya dia di hati ini,dalam penghidupan ini,di saat ini mampu membuatku berasa puas.dan yang paling penting aku bahagia!
ku harap perasaan ini akan kekal dan terus melekat di hati ini.....

im frustrated!!

"this is an off record.boss is too slow", he says.then i replied "huh?erm,okay"...

what the hell of that?
damn!
i am so so so frustrated!
how come they say it to me??!!
no0o0o!!
i cant take it
this is hurt me to much!
why they didn't see what i'm going through?
why they didn't see what i am doing here?
why they simply labelling me like that?
why they hurt me with such words?
oh God!
i know that U know.
i know that U can see.
i know that U can hear.
i know that U can feel.
sometimes..
i feel this world is too much (cruel) to me.
i feel this world is unfair to me.
i feel this world is not for me.
i feel this world always laugh at me.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!
God!please guide me.Bless me.Forgive me.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

oh mama saya mahu kahwin!

arghhhh!!aku tak tahu apakah perasaan ku sekarang..
ya!memang dalam perancangan untuk berkahwin..
but macam2 dugaannya..
nak lagi my family..
why la like that?..
tolongla anakmu ini yang kepingin sangat untuk bernikah.
mama said 8k..so..dah ada..
then,mama said barang hantaran not included..
what bout pelamin,baju n etc..?
oh no!!
mulanya seems to be ok and all went well..
aduh..!!!
sarat dalam pemikiran ini..
rase macam nak menjerit jer!
maybe inilah dugaan o cabaran nye..
if ini yang dikatakan itu,aku sahut!!

HOPE EVERYTHING ENDS WELL!!!!
AND I WILL BE MARRIED SOON!!
AMIN!!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

blog=diary

aku harap suatu hari nanti si dia akan membaca segala luahan hati dan perjalanan hidup ku ini.
bagi ku inilah blog, inilah diari ku.
peneman aku di kala gembira, sunyi, marah dan semuanya.
agaknya apakah reaksi nya di waktu itu ya....??
inilah aku, inilah hidupku.
01 April 2010~what is interesting moment today?nothing.juz i want to wasting my time with my blog.actually today i have a meeting at suk,kuantan.then,i decided to go home for lunch but.i juz want to spend my lunch time with him.my lover.my hubby.my abang.so,i treat him at nina asam pedas restaurant.new shop,for me la.i've being told and promoted by my officemates.okayla.not bad.he really enjoy the meal.i dont take part too much as long as he happy.and i happy too!then,we went to our 'garden'.GARDEN OF LOVE.hehe.kind of la.at there we chatting and sharing our moments.it's all about that night.ya!that special night for us.wow!there are many questions of 'if '..we talk each other..spending that beautiful evening together..hope this moments will be last forever..as he always hope so..